the book

(figuring out this blog stuff is kinda complicated -im in need of a vent ) Everyone has a different story-their story is what makes them unique.People often look at me as if i have a made life.Perfect family, money , church going girl -HA!-that is all I will say to that .One thing I do not like to do with people is compare life stories - just to see whos is worse-the thing with that-God ( yes who i believe in )placed us where we are now. Whatever we are going through in life as individuals - you we are alive and stand still standing -so therefore we are handling it. I know i havent been through the worse of the worse ,but im able to handle what comes my way obviously . That is the way to look at it- if you are still standing - then you are gonna get through. Life throws a lot of curves and from having the experience of being in love -u kinda have to learn to trust your gut-but then again when you go through things that may hit you hard -its another one of life's lessons.I was in a relationship and when he wanted to get back with me I had a gut feeling telling me to wait and give it more time but there is this other feeling called attachment- you kinda want to hold on to what you got while its still there - i didnt go with my gut and i end up falling deep head over heels even more than before the break up-it was bliss- then it was a drought-then it was dead-all in a blink of an eye- i look back and say to myself if only i would've went with my gut -something was telling me not to - life is full of those types of incidents- you really cant dwell, i really cant dwell- . Its now part of my story . If i hadnt gone through that , i wouldnt be blogging, i wouldnt have the friends i have now ,i wouldnt have progressed into who i am now .Pull the positive out of every negative -its always at least one thing there.Some days i feel like i move to fast for life .I go about keeping myself busy to avoid the pain of this heartbreak , the realization of whats going on -its not a bad thing ,some type of therapy has to take place . Im anxious for more good to come my way though -then again checking myself-this is how i got where im at now-not waiting . I believe if most people slow down and actually look around or just enjoy what they have in the present -some of life's curve balls can be dodged.Its like they say though ,you live and you learn ,sometimes learning comes the hard way. What is life without lessons ,what's a book without a story.My story is what makes me "me."