zm outlook

It has been a minute since I last blogged.Its so many things to talk about .My other blogs were based on personal of experience of being in love for 4 yrs of my life . It has been two years almost in coming since my single journey has begun. I am two months away from being 22.(sigh). I 'm becoming an adult and I'm actually starting to feel it in a way.Im wanting my own space more and I wish I didnt have the burden of all these bills,and i wish for a  bigger circle of friends.But at the same time 'm becoming more appreciative of the smaller things. I have three constant friends.I can honestly say I love them and they want the best for me .They push me in life as far as moving forward and that is what a good friend is suppose to do .I have started my journey at a university .I like it so far, though i  havent took full advantage of the social aspect of it yet. Its a bigger environment that allows me to shake my head even more . Jackson is so small compared to other cities . I havent been many places but I feel like I have seen it all or at least enough .So many people out here are just dreaming or getting married . I had a dream years ago I'm slowly taking steps for it to come to past. I feel behind though, since I'm about to hit 22. My outlook on marriage and love has changed completely. I dont so much as want it anymore because I think it scares me . What I do want though is to be a fashion designer , a successful entrepreneur and someone who helps make a difference in society .That is where my heart is at right now. Love can wait . I find when you stay focus on your passion or just doing something as simple as going to the gym nothing small or of this shallow world seems to mattter much . I promise people have been telling me that nonstop for the last two years. Things always have a way of hitting you in its own timing. .2012 is going to be a year of adventure and success. Its a new year. Though life hasnt started over it is the beginning and that means a fresh start to change old ways and make new ones. Yea you can simply do this during any year but if you set things at the beginning of the year it gives you a challenge to keep it going during the year .