the U'S follow and I'S lead

You know when you want something the second you look at it or the second it sounds appealing. You know when you love something and you cant stop thinking about it  and it brings joy for more than one reason. That is how I feel about my work lately. As a designer, as an artist, I like making cards simply to show my creativeness and get a smile. I like to design clothes to help people look good and help them gain that confidence that they lack . I love colors and putting things together.To find a elegance in the simplest , most creative things. I think being single was once a curse.Now I believe it has been my biggest blessing in disguise. I can focus on me. I think every woman and every man needs to focus on their self at some point. Whether one is devoted two months or two years. That is when they put relationships , having children, all the extra stuff on the back burner. I feel like so many people these days do not know how to be them self. They dont know who they really are. Women especially spend so much time up a dudes butt trying to make him happy and purposely getting pregnant to keep him around . Its sad cause so often living in the moment can affect you almost always. If you have no dream or no vision for yourself you probably don't think of a future or what currently matters as an end result . I get alot of crazy looks when I say I would like to get married and have children in my 30's ..How is that crazy? I look at Beyonce .She is a woman of passion , goals , and much success. We can get on her looks, and hate on her as much as we want but truth is the woman is truly an artist. People are always singing her songs, a video is always being released, and she gives the world nothing more to talk about but her work and leaves them curious to wonder about everything else. I only wish sex was not such a big thing today, I only wish women had more respect for themselves..What is society's double standards? I wish when it comes to sex women would quit comparing themselves to men ...last time i checked a penis and vagina do not operate the same , they dont look alike and if one monkey robs a bank and gets away with it i guess we all want to be monkeys now. People really should just quit paying attention to the rest of the world and what the people around them or doing (note to self) because at the end of the day you are the one who has to live with it , you are the one who will have to carry the weight of your decisions. everybody be following these days (im guilty of it ) but somebody have to be the leader.Outside of following these rappers, and ....no comment ... what does one think or desire them-self -figure that out and I think the world would be partially better .nobody is coming original.all the game these dudes be trying to spit today was played out at the beginning of 2011, only desperate naive females tend to buy into it - ill save those lines for another blog .My point is if people would spend time on them self they would not be so anxious to hear from somebody else the things they could have already told themselves. they would not need nobody to make them feel good cause they can do that them self . there is nothing cute about being easy - you may be thinking you got him but he just thinking another number ..truth be told. true value comes with work . develop a brand for yourself ..what do you want people to remember you for . we only have one life to live , your decisions today will affect tomorrow- think long term if your vision takes you that far.